Joy joy joy... I prayed in tongues on the way to church this morning and I prayed for joy in my life. Because I constantly fall back into the rut of feeling miserable. This morning was especially difficult because I woke up with a thought/dream/idea in my head. That I'd buy her coffee, the type that comes in glass bottles, for her late night studying. And it made so much sense till I started asking myself... Why can't I just leave it be? Its not as if she doesn't know how I feel. Why do I still pursue that wisp of a dream?
Why indeed...

On a brighter note, the world cup has started and I'm enjoying the whole atmosphere of it. It isn't as fun as when church friends used to come over for the big matches but hopefully that can be arranged after the group stages. The irritating thing is that I won't be able to catch the matches on weeknights because I'll be in camp. I'm beginning to get too used to civillian life again. As my ORD date approaches, I begin to feel a sense of muted excitement. As if I'm afraid that something bad might happen before I ORD. Thats always the case with me and I need to learn to stop worrying about this.

Worship practice as usual today... I had slight problems playing one of the songs that Jean wanted. There was a change of rhythm in the song and I had problems getting it right. The problem was that it was a simple change and I knew that it was 'do-able'. Thats the thing about being in band or any group where people must work together. One person or instrument out of tune makes it all sound bad. The thing I have to learn is to be more assertive in playing. I have to be in-time and confident about it.

You were never a mistake...